Alright, insecurity #3 would have to be part of my smile. Sometimes I've felt self conscious with how my top lip pretty much disappears when I smile like this. But again, I'm trying to look past that. So what if I don't have Angelina Jolie lips? I've been very blessed by not needing braces to straighten my teeth, so I shouldn't feel so insecure about showing them.
Today was alright. I had classes all day and was slightly self conscious at the beginning, but that didn't last very long. My friends are really great and have encouraged me so much. Although, I still haven't seen a major difference in my attitude toward how I look. When I look in the mirror, my initial reaction is still "Ehh.... sorta wish I could cover that up." or "I wish my hair wasn't doing that weird flip." But I'm learning to see past these "imperfections". I'm learning to focus on stuff I do like and am also learning to like the stuff I didn't like before.
I read through Ephesians this afternoon. In chapter 4 verse 29 it says, "Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear." I know that as a girl, we tend to talk... a lot. Sometimes it's not necessarily a bad thing, but it definitely can be. I'm starting to ask myself, is what I'm talking about building up and giving grace to those who hear? I'm sure you all have heard this before; it's nothing new. But God has been teaching me (and convicting me) of how I talk to people; specifically my family.
Proverbs 15:1 says "A soft answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger." Again, a verse I've read a lot, but one that is really starting to challenge me in how I speak with my siblings. I'm one of 8 kids, if you didn't know, so sibling squabbles are pretty common around here. But maybe if I lived out this verse, there wouldn't be as many.
I feel like loving people really does start at home. When you truly love your family, you will really try to love others as well. To me personally, when I see one of my friends who really loves her brothers and sisters, I view her as beautiful person. This is something I need to work on. My family sees the worst side of me and I am so far from being the daughter/sister that I should be. I'm praying that God would help me to live out all these verses cause I know I cannot keep patience with my siblings on my own. It's hard sometimes, but I love my family so much and I want to be the best example for my little sisters and my little brother as I can be.
Psalm 19:14 "Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord, my rock and my redeemer."
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